Not relaxing at all...

Hey guys,
I'm sorry for not writing for so long.. (although I would have got enough to write about! >.<)
I just want to apologize to everyone I hadn't got enough time lately to write/meet... I hate it being like this, really :/

For making you understand I did this little (ugly) diagram to show you my daily life.. (just in german, sorry!)

Okay, I'm really sleeping a LOT ^^;
But also I have to do a lot for school lately.. I am coming home and have to do homework/learn at least for 2 hours or more :/
All the other things that come up you can read above.
I made socializing an extra point because this is something I just can't (and don't want to!) cut out, so I'm at least writing back when someone sends me a message via facebook/whatsapp/whatever.
The blue one is the sparetime-one... for me that's the time of the day when I just have to do NOTHING. That's when I sometimes meet friends, do a blogpost, do sports, sew something. This is not more than 1-2 hours a day. And that's not much for me :/
Because there are times when I just want to relax, watch a movie, take a bath. That means I have to disregard my other hobbys or friends...  so I've often got a guilty conscience while relaxing V_V (but I also know, I MUST relax, otherwise I'll go crazy for sure...catch-22 -_-)


So.. I hope you can understand me a little more now.. 

School has started again... summer-vacation conclusion

On thursday school started again in my region. All classes were split up, shuffled and put together into new classes. I'm really sad about that! Although we could see each other every day in recess... can't stop grieving about that :O (I'll miss you, Martin! >_<)

Anyway, I'm curious about my new class and new teachers and everything... for some of my fellow pupils this will be their last year (maybe for me, too. Not sure about that yet T_T), therefore I hope we'll have fun as much as possible and creating some good last memories of our schooltime!! ^_^

My outfit for the first schooldays. Wearing my "Sweet like candy"-Dress again *happy with it* ^_^
My hair isn't that bright anymore and in the lower half there isn't hardly any color left ^^;; Kinda weird... but have to live with it ^^


Since summer vacation came to an end I'm looking back at this list I made 6 weeks ago and draw a conclusion:

* Mallorca vacation
* visiting family in Mainz
* visiting a friend in Leipzig
* maybe visiting Berlin
* having a lot of time for exercising
* going swimming and tanning of course
* meeting friends and party
* reorganize schoolthings
* find something I want to do after the a-levels
* start painting with acrylcolors
* of course sewing/knitting/crocheting and taking a lot of pictures!

Mh. Not that much done xD
6 weeks sounds like a lot of time.. but in the end it wasn't ^^; I really was kinda lazy... didn't do much exercising - at least not that much I intended to.
And I didn't party at all! o_O OMG, what's wrong with meeeee???!! Most of the time the people I wanted to party with didn't had enough time -_- And other ones just showed their asshole-personality! Hate it when friends suddenly turn into assholes... -_-
I've bought some canvas for painting... but never found the mood for painting, though -_-.
And I avoided searching for something I want to do after the A-Levels because it's too depressing -_- I really AM a scaredy-cat -_- (... nice expression for the german word "Angsthase" found via Leo Dict ^^)

Aaaaahhhh I'm too lazy.... hate iiiiiiit >_<~~

Sometimes starting all over is the only opportunity.

The ones who follow me on facebook might already have seen it... ;)
Yeah.. I just had a strong urge to change something in my life, because I've the feeling of standing still at the moment.
Right now I've only got the chance to change my haircolor (which means a lot to me! >_<) but hopefully I'll gain the courage for further changes, soon :)

(At the moment the color isn't as bright as on the picture anymore - it wasn't a permanent color ^^)