Montag, 29. Oktober 2012

Belated runwayshow-contest report

A few months ago I applied as a designer for some fashiondesign-contest in my city. I did this with an email, mailed some pictures of my work and waited so long for a reply that I almost forgot about it ^^; Then they finally replied that I was in the pre-decision-contest and I was like "What's this spam-mail about?" but than I recognized the meaning of this! So far - an awesome opportunity! I was really excited!!
The only problems: The hosts of this runwayshow told me the show would be in less than one week and I should have some kind of "collection" of 3 outfits for a runway show, hosted by some local club in Magdeburg. Guess what - I never made any collection. Lol. -_- So I had to make something up and finish some pieces... the only collection-meaning of my "collection" is that on each piece there is a colloboration between sewn fabric and knitted wool. That was all I could do in this short amount of time - I still had school besides that!
AND the even bigger problem was that they told me I had to bring my own models! WHAT THE FUCK?! Where should I get three models?! ... I decided to ask some girls I know... not that easy because runway-models have to be tall. That's really important because my clothes are often worn by me so they are made for someone my height and would look strange on some 1,50-girl ^^;
So in the end finding models was my biggest problem... the ones I knew didn't have time or cancelled at the last minute -_- So I was running around school, talking to some nearly strangers if they want to walk on a runway show... kinda embarrassing... and stressfull! I was really happy when I could get some girl from my physic-classes, Anja, who I never talked to, to be my model! She was simply perfekt (and even better than the ones that cancelled before, so I was quite pleased xP) and had a friend who was as perfect as her, who wanted to participate, too. With some other girl I knew I had my 3 models! .... at least that was what I thought.
In the end Anja's friend and the other girl had to cancel because of work -_-
So there was only Anja left on the day the runwayshow was held. And even she wasn't feeling well, but tried her best for me! I was so touched!!! ;_;

 My outfit as a designer for running around and dressing models... ^^
 
Anja and me showed up at the club a few hours before the show would start, two models short. So I asked the hosts if they probably had some models left and they easily answered "No problem!" and I was relieved for the time being.
Than there was a practice-run-through that totally was a mess -_- There wasn't a "normal" catwalk as I expected, it was some kind of red carpet through the room with some big stairs and a platform (you can see them in the front).

The light was quite dark, that's why most of the pictures didn't turn out good.... but it looked nice in real.
You should try stepping on this thing with high-heels on and a mega-mini-short-skirt!!! >__<;
I really had sympathy for my models ^^; .. at least until those "real" models started to act like bitches (therefore I had even more sympathy with Anja, who had to deal with this catfight..)
For real.. one of my supposed-to-be models was looking like a drag-queen and was acting like some superstar (days after the fashionshow I got the information that this woman was actually the girlfriend of some self-called german "star" that is actually just known because of his last name "Schwanz" (= meaning "dick") - that explains a lot... ;))
Than I finally had to fit my new models. And guess what... they didn't fit into my dresses!!! >_<
So I changed the dresses of the models a few times... and one of them just didn't fit into.... so in the end I had to walk in my own fashionshow!! >o< (after I ate a lot of things because of all the stress... fuck :O)


Quite surprisingly I had to do some interview on a stage, too -_- And I so didn't know what to say -_-
I tried to sell my collection as "wearable, not like many other designers works." Maybe this was a bit provocating because many of the other designers that were there had exactly such works...... ^^;;

And then the show starts........ For music I decided to play "Bodyrockers - I like the way you move", because it's the best runway-theme I know *_*;

Me, Anja, girlfriend-of-the-so-called-"star"
.... and everything went wrong -_-
Because I had to fill in for the other model I didn't practice with everyone the choreography and totally messed it up -_- (although Anja says the other model made some mistakes, too. So I wasn't the only one at fault ^^;)
The next problem were the photographers (and there were a lot of them!) that were standing ON the red carpet/runway where we had to walk! I almost bumped into one guy while walking the show! What the hell did they think?! And why wasn't there any barrier around the runway?! So annoying -_-
Because I had to change the clothes for the models (Anja should have worn the denim-skirt and the black top and the other way around), the blonde one didn't really fit into this skirt, that was Anja's size........

... you can see the result here -_-
(and that's one of the most flattering pictures of her........lower part of her body -_-)
So I had a model who not at all knew how to do a choreography-walk (=me) , a really grumpy-looking Anja (=because she was relly mad because of the other girl's attitude) and a self-called "topmodel" who was showing her panties all the time...... that definitely sounds like a successful runway show -_-. /irony

Anja and me were so relieved when it finally was over, that we drunk a lot of sparkling wine and I even tried to motivate everyone else to dance a bit ^^ (there was some tv-guy filming us but (luckily) I never saw that sequence xD)
At this point I have to mention all the great people who came to this event for supporting me! I was really happy that you all came, supported me and took pictures for me! ^_^

 Me and my favorite model Anja, finally smiling again ^^ (she is taller than meeee! Yaayyy!!)

 My surprise-support Patrick ^^ I almost jumped on him as I saw that he was also there ^_^

Because of everything stressfull I forgot to take a group picture... I'm so sorry >O< I really wanted to have a picture with all of you great people... ;_;

In the end I wasn't really disappointed when I wasn't the winner of this show. I kinda felt relieved. Because the main event would have been an ten times bigger event than this with more outfits to be done and obviously a lot more stress. So I was quite pleased when I finally could close this chapter of my life and finally could go back to my normal life without awkward bitchy models, really bad organized events and that much stress... and finally could focus on school again ;)

By the way, this was one outfit that won the contest: Aladdin meets underwear!
See-through pants! That's what the world was waiting for!!! ..... NOT!
 ... yes, that was my facial expression, too.



But at least I got something from this event:

- The knowledge on whom I can really count.
- I got to know Anja because of that :)
- The awareness that I really don't want to be a over-the-top-runway-fashiondesigner, but rather want to make clothes that a normal woman can really wear.
- It was a very interesting experience.
- The girlfriend of Nico Schwanz was wearing my dress!!!! WTF!!!!! *faints* ........................... JUST KIDDING! xDDD



THANK YOU @ everyone for helping, supporting and commenting here all the time! I really appreciate you all!!! ^___^




Sonntag, 28. Oktober 2012

Halloween 2012

It's not Halloween yet... but there is honestly no party on the real date o f halloween! o_O
Therefore we celebrated it earlier... and it was fun! I wasn't on a "real" (= not in a private flat of someone I know) Halloween-Party before! And this one was quite well made, too! I was surprised that so many of the other guests came in costumes as well... but maybe I shouldn't wonder because the location gave a 20€-Coupon for drinks to everyone who came in a costume :D
Honestly.. this was the first motivation for the most of my group, too... lol... but it was fun to dress up in costumes ^^ I wore my catgirl-costume again, although it isn't a halloween-costume, I know xD But I don't have anything else here >.<

 I lost some weight and was quite pleased this evening ^-^

Dressing up in my room and taking some pictures... who is the mysterious person dressed up as scream??? ;P

 Our full group - everyone had such a great costume! I was really happy that everyone dressed up, too, as I feared I would be very outstanding...
The most outstanding person was our mysterious morph-suit-man :D

  And there he is ^^ (costume-change! I'm looking like some celebrity xD)

Everyone wants to wear cat ears... meow!!

 Yeah!!!!11

 And I just had to take a picture with this two guys xD 

It almost felt like some convention there, lol.
But with better music and a lot more alcohol. ^_~

 Have a happy halloween everyone!!!


(and you'll never find out who's under the scream-mask! Muhahahaha.......)


Samstag, 13. Oktober 2012

Outfit + personal stuff

 Just some outfit-shot from school yesterday.

Mütze + Rock: raspberry-juice
Leo-Weste + Leo-Stulpen: raspberry-juice
Top with chains: costumized by me


I have a lot of personal stuff going on the moment.

Everything is unstable, I don't know how my future should look like or how I at least WANT it to look like. Friends go and come, I gave up and I got new hope. Everything is changing. Maybe that's a good thing, because I wasn't happy with the situation at all.
When something is making you ill, disappointing you again and again, you should ditch it out of your life. Am I right?
Someone told me that I would have too many expectations. But isn't it natural to expect something good from life? Seeing all the other happy people, is it wrong to expect being happy someday, too?
Yes, I have expectations. And I think everyone should have. The ones that don't have any expectations left, have given up their life already.

Someday I want to be able to say something like in this song...

"Wishing, wanting for something more, always better than I had before.
Who knew these dreams would come true?"


Freitag, 5. Oktober 2012

Waist-skirt with lace - Shooting

I'm back with the promised shootingpictures.. at least the first part of it ;)

The castle I shooted with Franzi had to be used for my shooting as well - did I mention I really liked this setting?! :)
This time Thomas took these pictures and he did a great job :)
The first time I wore a waist-skirt EVER! Freaky but true :D



I like natural posing the most :)
Dancing in the sun~ haha~
 Outfit:

Skirt: raspberry-juice
Blouse: no-name
Shoes: New Yorker (one of my favorite pairs :D)


Aaaaaand always there has to be an outtake-picture ;)

AAHHHH!! They're gonna get meeeee!!!!

Mittwoch, 3. Oktober 2012

Mainz with pink hair + Shooting with Franzi

FINALLY my computer is working again completely! I had a lot of problems with my bamboo-tablet, which I use instead of a mouse.. computers are the most unlogical thing existing (men included! ;))!

So, now I can finally show you some pictures of my trip to Mainz at the beginning of september.. where my hair was still neon-pink and I really liked using false lashes (as you could easily tell, haha). ^^
At the fruit-fields near Mainz. Sadly we were too late for cherries >o<



Badass Thomas made me cry! .... j/k :D
I really liked my make-up in this one (dolly eyes without circle lenses, yaaayyy!)
Paparazzi! I know what he was up to..... ;)


We didn't do much while we were in Mainz *laugh* Just eating fruits from the fields (apples, plums and berries were ready), took pictures and went shopping ;D So not much pictures from that... 
But I can tell you how surprised my parents were when they saw this haircolor on me xD I never had such "haircolor-phase" in my life, so they don't know such "childish" things from me xD

BUT:  I had a shooting with my little sister for the first time! She was really shy as I asked her to be my model ^^. I really like having someone to do a shooting with because I can improve my skills AND it is really interesting to see how which pose makes a difference in the appearence of the model, her figure and what lightning can do for the model's skin! I learned a few things that I'll try to do in front of the camera next time, too! ^^

It's too bad she didn't want to wear some of the dresses I made because the ones I had with me were "too bright and colorful" for her, lol. How can someone NOT like bright and colorful? I don't understand! xD Maybe next time I'll make something she wants to wear ^^

Although she felt very insecure at first, she did a great job!
The castle called "Schloss Waldthausen" near Mainz - beautiful place!




Later there was some kind of guided tour round the castle and they stopped and stared at us... we felt like animals in zoo xD


I did a lot of shooting-pictures with me in raspberry-juice-clothes, but I'm going to show them to you in my next post :)
(aaahhh... I've to show you the pictures from the mallorca-shooting, too! And my runway-show! So much to do >o<!)